Okay, so it has been a very long time since I blogged. I am thinking that most people have given up on me, so maybe no one will be reading this. Or maybe there are a bunch of people that check everyday, just to see what's up in my life. Either way, this is a great place for me to just...well...blog. I am still confused about being in Canada. For the most part I love it and am glad to be here. And yet, there are times that come often where I just want to go back. I mean for good. This scares me, because I have always been "Go Canada!" and very critical of people who want to move away. I guess that one came back to slap me in the face. Hmmm. Possibly a God thing?
I just told the lady that I have started nannying for that I am looking for a different job. I feel very peaceful about the decision, but still a bit guilty, because now they have to look for another nanny. But she is a substitute teacher, and I don't work unless she does. And I am just not getting enough calls to make it worth my while. Plus, it kinda sucks to not have a fixed work schedule. I understand that that is her job, I just hope that she understands where I am coming from. I need to work, and especially in April/May, when I am done school, I need something full time, which that job was not. So anyway, I am job-hunting again. Sigh. Luckily I am not stressed about getting a teaching job. Yet. I just feel that God will direct me in that area. My mom's friend is a teacher and she told me last Sunday not to worry, because "God wants Christian teachers in the schools". So that gave me hope and put things into perspective. He knows what I and what we (as in Ryan and I) need so much more than we do, and He knows what's best, so why would I worry and try to control things on my own?
Well, I am blogging partially as procrastination to finishing a paper. I am almost done, but hit a mind-block, so hopefully I will be able to finish now that I took a break. I am so sick of being a student...