Oh boy, this is a tough one. There are so many songs that I love, that evoke very different and very strong emotions. I love music and I love songs and it's hard to pick just one. But the two that immediately come to mind have helped me through the past 3 1/2 years since losing Mom. And since that has been the single-most life changing event for me, it's the songs that I relate to that which mean the most, I guess. I can't always listen to them; if I am feeling joyous, thankful, etc. I don't want to listen to them, because they will probably bring me down. But when I am in despair, they encourage and strengthen me, even if they don't necessarily pull me out of my emotions at the time.
"When the Tears Fall" by Newsboys has been the song I've turned to most after losing Mom. I think I really love it because it acknowledges the hurt and pain in life and doesn't just sweep it away with a simple, "God will take care of it". Life is just not that simple. This song talks about praising God despite the pains of life. In the midst of it. And that it is possible to feel what we often think are conflicting emotions, and those are praising God and despising Him at the same time. Gasp. Did I just say despising God? Yup, I did. I have felt that way. Yup, I have told God that I hate Him - for taking my Mom away. And you know what? God was still at the end of my pain of the moment, waiting to fold me into His arms and let me cry, let me hate Him, let me heal with Him and come out praising Him in a deeper way than I ever thought possible.
"All That I Can Say" by the David Crowder Band is another song that talks about the same thing, in a different way. It's powerful and I love it.
Okay, one more:
"Today" by Brian Doerksen - this was one of Mom's favourite's and we played it at her funeral. It was so fitting. I have a new appreciation for this song, and the truth about choosing.
2 comments:
I noticed all the songs you picked had a connection to your Mom. I also have several songs that just instantly remind me of your Mom. The one that tops the list is Our God Reigns. I still have this vivid picture in my mind of all those years in Awana, her at the piano and how she could get the kids to sing that song! I still cannot sing that song, let alone listen to it without getting teary. And yup, a couple of weeks ago we sang it in church and I still couldn't get through. To top it off your Dad was worship leader!! Verna
Isn't is amazing how powerful songs are?! God knew what He was doing when He created music!
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